Summertime is drawing to an end and I'm not ready. I feel like there's more I need to do (even though I've done plenty). My dog Milla is reaching the end of her life. It has made me sad this summer. She'll be 16 in November and I have a feeling she won't be with us next summer. It's been a roller coaster of emotions watching her age this past year. We didn't take any vacations this summer because we couldn't put her in a kennel and we knew we would worry ourselves silly even with a pet sitter. Traveling with her was not an option either. Some days I feel like we are getting close to saying goodbye and then other days her zest for life emerges when she enjoys her stinky chew bones outside or her walk down the path behind our house to sniff her favorite bushes. I hope we will know when it's time if we have to make that decision. I've never had a dog for 16 years. Our other dog, Bart, had cancer at 12 years and we knew the decision then. She's a tough dog that's for sure. We didn't name her "Milla Runs Wild" for nothing!
I haven't made a lot of soap lately. I took a little break after the mantra swirl soap challenge. I wanted to let my soaps cure and try my different recipes. They are all very similar with small changes. I'm always fascinated with experiments and results. Cocoa butter vs. shea butter or castor oil vs. no castor oil. I even tried a no butter recipe recently as sometimes I just can't bear the thought of using a butter in soap! Maybe because I looked at how much I've spent on soaping supplies! Does butter matter?
Besides soap experiments, I've been doing more mad scientist experiments again. I always feel the need to test one more ingredient. It's exhausting, but I need to know how different emulsifiers work or how different oils or butters feel in my products. I just need to be sure! I have a lot of recipes that say "Final" on them and that feels good to me. I have to realize that nothing will ever be "perfect" and that's OK because it's close enough. I think one of my faults is that I'll love a recipe and then think "hey, why don't I replace this oil with that oil since I'm already using that oil in something else?" Seems like an efficient plan, but then it changes the product. My husband finally said to just leave it alone and make it the way I like it. So....lesson learned. I need to quit going in circles.